I had a great weekend, saw some old friends from Church who visited from out of town. That was so weird, if only they knew the real me. I don’t feel I belong anymore since my life is a facade, it seems like one big lie. Especially, when I get praise for being such an on-fire Christian. Sometimes I keep thinking I just need to go straight. But, then I think, “if you don’t get your kicks now you’ll be regretting it, just you regretted those times you missed out on in your teens and twenties.”
Back at work today. Carmen has to reschedule. She has a daughter and had to stay with her today. I had some good conversation with Diana over the weekend, but she didn’t reply to my last text that is now over 24 hours ago, so maybe that fizzled. I hope not, she is cute. She reminds me of Sierra in ways, apart from being articulate and well read, despite being younger as an freshman. She probably has an active social life and busy school schedule, so I’ll try her again later. I think I’ll keep my date with Nancy tomorrow if she doesn’t cancel on me. I have a feeling it might fall through, but you never know. Keep on chugging.