Another mundane report for today. CL is quiet. Tinder I keep getting matches, but nobody seems to be talking. OKC is useless as always, sadly, Jenna disappeared and removed her account. I hope all is well with her. She was moving to this area in the next few months and I was looking forward to meeting her. Maybe she just blocked me after reading about all my shenanigans, and for that, I certainly wouldn’t blame her. If I was a somewhat reasonable person (good thing I’m not), I would be hesitant getting involved with me. In any case, I wish her well and hope she finds love.
Elle was texting me every day, and we’d chat a bit. She seemed all the more intent on having me over sometime, but could never seem to overcome her anxiety. Can’t figure that girl out, but it still just seems tradition for us to text, I mean, we’ve been messaging in one form or another off and on for a year. I do like the girl, even if she is a bit odd (and I’m really not sure she is a girl at all, much less a 19 year old as she claims). But, it is the endless cycle with her. She’ll be hot for a while, texting me all the time, then she’ll slowly move to one or two messages a day, then every other day, then once a week, and then once a month, and then not at all for a while until out of the blue she’ll hit me up one day.
I have to stop logging into my Instagram. Part of me thinks I should unfollow Sierra, but I think I should be stronger than that. But, I’m always surprised at the emotions I feel at each of her posts, which have been more frequent of late. Judging from all the pics with this one particular guy, she may have a new boyfriend, which makes me jealous obviously. All the same, I should be able to wish her well, but all I can do is compare our situations and feel like I’m missing out on good times. Envy is an ugly thing, but I know I’m stronger than this.
Onward and upward. I’m having a good time lately. I’m reading more, watching old movies, and my son is growing by leaps and bounds (and getting to the point where he’ll be making leaps and bounds soon). I’ve completed several big projects at work, and it is time to take on some new ones. While I feel like some love and passion is missing from my life, at least I’ve hit a decent equilibrium for the time being that I can enjoy until the next shake-up.